Mood: So... Tired...

Song: Snowblind, the System of a down version

Meh...

So I'm definatly WAY tired. I had an extremely long day that I really don't want to go into. I nearly skipped history because of it... this week has been really busy amazingly, all my days have been filled to the brim with activity. Very opposite of my past few weeks, it's nice and all it's just been really tireing because I've been used to empty weeks. My arms are really sore from rock climbing yesterday but It was fun anyways. Now when I flex my arm it actually looks like I have some kind of muscle ^.^

By the way, sometime within this week I managed to make two new icons...

theres this one...

Which I like a lot because it says she doesn't feel anything but she looks sad which is how most people are, they say they don't care when really they do.

Then this one which I am SUPER proud of. because look at it for a second... Can't you kind of see the clouds in her hair? you can kind of a make out a sunset! Thats right, I put I sunset as one of the layers in that picture...way awesome. To show you exactly the difference it makes I'll show you the original...

Anyways, any of my christian friends feel free to use that (Because I know you'll like it Jen lol)

anyways, I'm off I guess. Not much else to say I suppose

You're stretching out your arms to somthing thats just not there

Samantha

Mood: Proud of mahself

Song: Crazy on you by Heart

Muhahaha lookie what I made ^.^

It was just some random Sesshoumaru icon so I spiffed it up with a bunch of gradients and brushes. Like a bazillion layers lol. I really liked this one brush but I had to put it at a really low opacity or it would look wierd

that one... If you have photoshop you should use it. I wish I remembered where I found it...

ANYWAYS.... My day was boring to say the least. Maxy might come over fun shtuff... and umm... Yeah I think thats it.

Don't pretend to hold it all in just let it out

Samantha

P.S

Hurray!! 1000 hits! Thanks guys ^.^ I think I'll make a pretty "1000 hits" picture now lol. I wish I knew who the thousandth person was, I'd dedicate it to them... apparently it was the last person to visit my site yesterday.. seeing as I've had two today and I'm at 1002 according to my screen now lol... Ok done rambling

Mood: Tired

Song: Don't Panic by Coldplay

meh...

My life is so boring. Seriously... I don't know how many of you realize it but I'm always alone. Constantly. I talk to lots of people at school but I don't really have any good good friends except Rachel and Simi, and me and Simi don't hang out and Rachels only around on weekends. My moms schedule sucks so she's gone when I get home and isn't home til one in the morning. My dads not home until I'm already going to bed. I've also been going to bed earlier because I seriously have nothing better to do. Not having parents or siblings around ever sounds nice but its very boring. I tend to do a lot of thinking, reading, or just sitting around. I'm not a big video game fan because I'm just no good at them, and the computer is only entertaining for so long. I was also noticing that I've been getting myself up and going to school on my own ever since the second grade. Thats when my mom stopped waking up with me, I think she stopped making me lunch after kindergarten. I'm not trying to draw pity to myself, like I'm some sort of deprived lonely girl. I'm just becoming increasingly more aware of how uneventful and lonely my life is. It's just kind of weird I think. I deal, It's not like I'm massively depressed and want people to visit me, that would just be weird because I've become accustomed to be being alone. I just thought I'd share with you what I do all day.

Take today for example. Today was the most eventful day all week so far. I got to go to Simi's house for a half an hour, and then I talked to my mom for a half an hour because she hadn't left yet. Then I went upstairs and listened to Coldplay and looked for pretty pictures on the internet. Then I kind of wandered around my house in search of food, which we don't have because we've needed to go shopping for about a week now, but everyone in my family is lazy. then I came up here to post and it's now five thirty. Oh wait I looked at some of Ali's friend's live jorunals. they are interesting to say the least.

Everybodys live journal seems the same to me. Actually I guess there are two catagories really...or three I guess... theres the "let me tell you about my day catagory" and then the "I hate everything and I'm so depressed category" or just "I'm depressed and how could you not have seen" ones. Then again most people like to talk about their particular type of depression because it tends to not show. I don't like whne people compare their sorrows to those of other peoples. People will always be sad no matter what kind of life they live. and No one has the right to say someone shouldn't be unhappy, especially if they really have no idea what that person is going through. The truth is that different things are sad to different people. it jsut depends on how that person was raised. Sure it may seem dumb to you but who are you to really judge anybody? I hate when people form irrational cruel opinions of people without even stopping to think about the variables that could be in their life that they don't even know about... Anyways... Those are at least the main ones. I must say they get annoying at times (and depressing) but they are unavoidable. however on rare occasions you find the "Let me talk about something I was contemplating" journals where they talk about interesting things. I like those ones, they are more interesting obviously. Sadly enough I don't think mine is one of those... To bad...

I love love love Coldplays live version of yellow. In the beggining he says "There's no excuse to be sat down in this song, please ya'know...If you stand up we'll buy you all ice cream" They sound great in concert from what I've heard recorded and from what I've heard from other people. I'd love to see them. I guess I'm in a coldplay mood. I've been in a mellow songs mood as of recently, last week it was dave matthews band. I guess I was having to much loud music before and my brain decided it was time to cool down.

So I guess I'm just rambleing at this point. Kudos if you've actually read this far...Is that even how you spell kudos...? whatever... I bought a new manga. It's called Othello and it's about split personalities. I wish I kne what the actual Play Othello was about so I could maybe understand why it's titled that.

Anways I guess I'm done really... I wish more random people would read my Livejournal...Maybe I'll go comment on random peoples LJ's

I like this picture... It's called Ophelia drowns by... Amanda somthing... crap don't remember...

Lost lost lost...

Samantha

Mood: Happy

Song: Crash into me by the Dave Matthews band

Muhahaha. I love adobe photoshop, this is my first time actually working with it but I like it lots. this is what I made ^.^

from this:

To this!:

Yeah so I understand that it's not much but I'm still really proud of myself. I also understand that the m in me is hard to see...It says forgive me incase you couldn't tell...It's just use of grid lines and glowey text and darkeningness but I like it...

Life is short but sweet for certain

Samantha

Mood: Apathetic

Song: Sweet surrender by Sarah Mclachlan

Moo...

So I've kind of had nothing truely interesting to say I guess. at least not a lot of things. I guess I can throw some stuff together today though.

Today was long, Exceedingly long. I got to be in the dumb people group in chemistry because I'm DUMB. I also almost slept during the game portion of epic. I think I might accidently be leading on a boy again. I'm apparently really bad at that. I'm sure this boy knows who he is and too him: I'm sorry if thats what's happening, I want to be better closer friends but being friends is all I see. If I seemed to be leading you on I am realy sorry, like I said, I don't realize when I do these things until It's to late. I thought I'd get a jump start on this one though before it went to far.

Pat drank some of my snow! Dustin brought me back melted snow all the way from Michigan because I'd never seen snow and it was really dirty and gross. I transferred it into a plastic water bottle and tried to filter out some of the obvious dirt and grass hehe. But yeah, Pat drank some of it...eww...

Zach wrote Maxy some letters which is really nice because depressing Maxy entries stink. She should be happy more often ^.^

anyways, I went to Jeremy's party last sunday and that was really fun. He has a lot of friends apparently. I wish that many people would come to my parties lol. I'm to anti-social. We played red light green light and red rover. Then we played manhunt which was fun until Rachel went to tag Jeremy and he tripped over his pants, rolled a few times, and his arm popped out of socket or somthing like that. He didn't go to school monday. Poor Jeremy, he feels better now apparently so it's all good, plus it's fun to make fun of rachel by yelling at her for shoving Jeremy into the ground, or pummeling him or anything with a negative mental image like that. I also got to meet the famous and infamous Amanda (It really depends on who you talk to though names will not be mentioned). She seemed really nice thats for sure ^.^

So my chemistry teacher has definatly been calling me -.- It's kind of creepy, but it is really reassuring to know how much she really cares about her students. How many teachers have ever called you worried about how you missed a homework assignment and telling you good ways to study and giving you links to good helpful websites and telling you the days you can come in for help if you are confused? Either way, it is really helpful.

anyways I think thats all mostly. My thanksgiving was good in case you were wondering. Oh and I had to wake up at 4:30 on black friday (the day after thanksgiving when all the stores have their sales and crazy women line up in front of stores in the wee hours of the morning to buy christmas gifts...basically a day of hectic insanity.) because my aunt wanted my mom to go shopping with her and wanted me to babysit her 2 year old. I babysat for a good 6 hours and made $20. I don't think it was worth it lol.

It doesn't mean much... It doesn't mean anything at all...

Samantha